15th Feb - Dotted.

Valentines' Day was even over already. I'm no longer 18 as I know. School days are like so out for me now.. hahaha.. still looking forward for Campus Life :) I bet i will like it tho !
As usual.. Work Work Work and Work. But slowly it's getting onto my daily life. I'm not tired and complaining after 2 weeks of working. Traveling and back to and from the same place are like a scheduled thing, Thank God I'm yet to really out to this society and start working for my life time ; Because It's really lifeless.

It brings me a Hit today, And lots of Nostalgia.. I almost cried out as It hurt so much. All I ever wanted was a family. I don't really mind and care about rich or poor, suffer or happy nor anything else.. But the secure and warmth of being together as a family.. Was serving this couple as I was working, looking at them pamper their son, joke with him, making him laugh and the son's laughter, Does really even make me now tears off when Thought of it.. I believe not everyone could understand how it feel.. But it reminds me of how my parents did the Love to me, how my siblings actually played with me and even if We fight, It's like.. something so missing and important now..
Children , Friends or anyone else out there. If you're having a secured family, now start cherish it. Don't wait until it's gone, and realize how wonderful it was. I know because I came from a Broken Family background .. Start loving them if you haven't.. Even you think that they are the one making you suffer so much. Still, they are the only one always be there for you. Your Family.

Was actually thinking lots of Drama for yesterday's Valentines. But too bad, I have no partner. Else I know how to give a surprise that will never forget :P .. Ends up spending my time with all the Alcohols .. Aww.. T.T .. It's okayyyy.. There's always next year ! hahahha

Guess it's time for bed. Good Night people ! :)

12th Feb - Life with Influenza.

I guess everyone heard about it, Whitney Houston's Dead. I was stunned when I first open my facebook, and it all pops up on the news feed wall. It was quite a sad thing, as one of the greatest voice in her generation was now being Silenced. I believe she's now with God in Heaven :) .. Singing with much joy along with all Angels.
I was to be said much listening to her songs, as it's really emo and good for break ups. :D. o ooops. lol. Well. not just that, as I also believe that she's a superwoman, that brings lot of inspiration to people. Life wise, she speaks lot about God if you do realize and research about her :).
I could only say, in any where else ; We will always need someone to influence us, and motivate us to move into a more rightful and success way. Friends, Family, Superstars are always one of the list for us to model about. But for me, I think God is my inspiration. God's People, are motivator for me in my life time.
Heard of lots of break up stories.. Is this the break up season ? Why is everybody having so much problems ? Guess It's really a bad beginning for this year :( .. Working was good today, but very boring and miss the colleagues as i was shifted to TimeSquare branch for a day.
Well.. Gotta sleep as tomorrow gonna Hardcore work again ! :( . GOOD NIGHTTT <3 <3

11 Feb - Faith ?

Woke up in the morning, as usual. Work just came into my mind the first thing. Now I realize that, I'm starting to miss school. Not because of the mind set thingy, but you doesn't need to worry about so much things, Allowance and Budget spending for a day, Timing accuracy, Punctuality. There's so many responsible after now..
I believe, Faith are something that everyone needs and have. Not just in Religion, Christianity. Rather that, in Works, Society, Family, Friends, Coworkers, Relationship and mostly in, God.
Let's put God's Theory aside first. Sharing about my own Experience. Really, For once I thought growing up fast, graduating from that hardcore jail place are one of the magic and wonders Genie granted me. I was wrong, I'm bearing with Responsible, Politics, Breaks on my Shoulder and Words of Criticism. It's all about Faith, If you're not strong with it. You definitely gonna be expel or isolated by this society. With all the anger, all the shit you need to tolerate with all the politics and high ranker ; Even you're NOT wrong and got blamed and scold, you can only keep quiet. We live in this World, the cost are Money. Without it, we are nothing, we will have no life as there's no supply. Of course, it's a new level and every part of it gives me a lesson. I thought I were mature enough handling things, But I was wrong. There's still so much things for me to learn about ; in matters of Responsible, Toleration, Relationship, Gossips and More that you could imagine. I really wish I could stuck my butt on my High School Chair, but still life are meant to be go on. :)

Now, the Christian ways. ( Is my own view and perspective )
God, might be not exist for non-believers. But definitely, Not all Believers believe that God exist. But personally, I do. Because until now, I still felt his presence onto me that blessed me so much. And this is the reason why am I still here. I saw a post in facebook, and it really encourage me. As I was praying to God another day, Forgive all my sins, although I'm still a sinner of Everyday. God wouldn't just abandon you for the things you did wrong, and there's always a purpose for it. The most important is, you know how to turn back, repent step by step. God never rushed you to do anything in just a minute, He's just too merciful and patient and full of love. Supply of this world, are decent for him. Because he will always make sure things are sufficient for me , and us :). The only thing is we are encounter and be responsible just alittle much to him.

Broke up after a week, makes me feel better. 6 Months just flew through.. like that.. I was quite disappointed at myself, as I will never happen be once that can be friends after a Clean Cut. But is really the best for me and you, as we already at this step. No point if we contact each other, are arguments. Hope you live your life to the fullness, and blessed. You're a good man. Though it's not about 3rd party problem. Still, Forgive me If it's my own problem. :) ..

Time to sleep ! Gosh shit, 3:24. Imma die tomorrow while working. =/. GOOD NIGHT. HEH. Peeps.

Owhhhh. I met a new friend today. AND I KINDA LIKEY. HAHA. *forgive for a sudden kid circumstances, as always* :P.

10 Feb - Instinct

Another day passed. Eventually, as I planned. Having a super recover sleep from the whole busy working and lacking week ! Pffft .. The maximum that I could sleep was just that 13 hours :( .. And I'm already O______O .. aww...
Quite lot of things that came into my mind when I was rolling and slacking on my bed xD.. Knowing my Instinct for most of the Time, Are quite true and accurate. The thing is I can't always depends on my Instinct, because not always that will lead me into the right way. I could only say, walk with faith and you will walk in the right path :)..
Grandpa was still not that conscious after that accident, still in ICU :( .. Praying hard that He will recover fast as he can't do any operation at his age.

Uhhhh.. Having a New Car soon I guess. Before College ! Muahahhaa.. Believing that God are giving me Triple Blessing recently.. and with alot of choice that I crocked made, I'm able to fix it back and be more blessed and bless other ppl too :) .

09 Feb - If Time, Could Be Turned Back..

Another Day of work, and finally ! I worked for a week without realizing it, Time passed like a blink of eyes indeed :) .. and yeaaaaaaaaaaa ! Tomorrow Off Day muahahahhaa ! Finally I can rest for the whole damn day after these exhausted works that implemented on !

Rush back home for dinner today as Mom cooked ~ Since then I know after working, you doesn't have the 'time' to spent with your family, or even have a meal with them.. and you will know how nice actually to be home and be a king or queen that being served by your siblings or parents. lol..

Had a little gathering with RO mates, everyone had changed. Not in attitude, still yet that talkertive and friendly of course. We don't have much time for each other already like how often we met last time usually as. Talk about RO, makes me wanna play it again ! hahaha.. and reminds us everyone, the days we missed out. It's sad, but still. Life, are to look forward. Now we know how to precious our time together, and make more time for each other too :) .. Was scrolling through the photos of ages ago. Seeing myself, and friends and everyone else. Things are going beyond imagination, everyone grow differently, things happened just so rapidly..

If I could really turn my time back, I wanna be at the age of 9. That I could know how to stop my parents from divorce, to create silly problems for my girl, and involve myself in homosexuality..But, we could only talk about it. And nothing can be changed, what can be changed it's the things that yet to be happen. So, what you're waiting for ? Let's do something to make our life wonderful, and never regret after. Hence, we can look back, with a Smile on our face, but not guilty and regretful.

5th Feb - Sweat Like a Dog .

WEW .. * owh too much DragonNest and learned from Pinnoys -.- *
WEW! What a Day ! It's my first Full Time of working today :) . and, It's freaking tired. Never been busy before like this, as there's toooooo many customer and tooooo little staff we had today @.@ .. But well, still I had an awesome day ! Also, Realizing school days are much fun than working :( .. Because you doesn't need to stand for 12 hours and feel the pain at your Back, to your Foot ! Like A Boss (Old Man) !

Quite alot of INTERESTING things happened today, as White People seems to, Interested in me O_O .. Yes. I got molested, well just abit. OK lar, he's quite good looking lar at least. HAHAHAHA :P !

and YEAAAAAAA.. lots of my friends : - Rebecca, Kristeen and Moky came to "visit" me ! Sort of 'gao lun dong' at my shop also. =/ .. Well, ok lar still at least baik hati abit. Not like IAN, Say " I sure come today ". MY FOOT, You put my aeroplane today x( ! and also. VIVIAN :DDD ! durh..

Still, I have no energy to write things already :( . Brain is like total blank .. O well.. That's all this short for today ! AAAWWWWWWW, Tomorrow is HOLIDAYYY ! :DDD , and I'm working. WTF...

Least of that, I'm glad to have my Normal life back again. At least, I doesn't need to have so much time to waste on unnecessary stuffs. Even better, making more suffers and mistake between you and I .. :') ...

4th Feb - This is it ?

Another day of working, was not that exhausted as were having lots of great time during working :P.. I know that's weird, but my store is just super awesome you know :).. Thank God of placing me in this place. heh..

Lots of friends were still asking about what happen and If is im fine. Thanks for all the concerns :).. certainly, I'm fine. But of course, I still won't able to be really Ok and forget about it at this time. I'll just take it as another memories, and a great history of companion in my life. Still , I need to let go ..

I thought of something , and wrote another thing in facebook, of course It's not complete , but well.. lol .. - :

有钱的爱情，很幸福.　要什么的得到什么 ;
普通的爱情，很幸福温柔.　因为彼此两方都会忍让，找最好的方法去体让对方.
没钱与真爱，很幸福温和甜蜜.　虽然没有所有想要与吃的东西，两方都会努力的取到，给爱的人自己最痛爱的东西，也彼此忍让，学习，珍惜与接受所有的缺点. :) ..
Wealthy Relationship can be Blessed,as you can get whatever you want.
Normal Relationship can be Blessed and Fondness, as both will tolerate and find the best way to treat each other to the max.
Lackness but True Relationship will be Blessed,Kindness and Compassion. Although can't have whatever they want, in both will work hard with their hard, and give the most Precious gift to their love ones. Learn how to tolerate, cherish and accept their defect. =)..

Everyone has their ups and downs in life, and it will never end. Each times it happens, it will be flabbergasted even more. But I learned this time, instead of avoiding it. Face it. Because when that thing is gonna end, It's the fact that it's gonna end. Don't take it as the world ends, but another part of the story ends. And time to start another paragraph after that full stops in the Book of Our Life. I believe, everytime we finally solve something. We will automatically gain rewards. Experience and Another Lesson. Theory of life, never ends. But each time we met, it's another theory. It's like study and learning, Until the day we die. We are still, Learning :) ..

3rd Feb - Difference

It's been sometime as I were so busy with stuffs around. Until i've actually neglected and put myself into sorrows and darkness. Until I found myself, here am I :)..

It was 2 months already for being away from High School. Things could have now changed so much, and so fast too. Instead of waking up everyday and repeating the same old schedule, There's much more socials entertainment and works needed to be entertain. It was a brand new start for everyone of Age 18, Different Environment , Different Thoughts, and Start a Different Growth.

You might think that being mature, it's by experiencing things. Even myself thought of that, and I realize it , it was so wrong. Because everyone mature in someway, Different people ; Experience different things. It's not wrong to give advise, but don't turn into Judgement. I started working in another job, instead in my Parent's Company. And I really learnt alot, instead of relying on parents giving you more expenses, You will understand how 'Hard Work' money came from, rather than just eat what you like, it's just like eating your own sweat, tiredness, and blood. Experience how really normal life is, if you're spending your Holiday at home doing nothing. Seriously, pack your bags and gain some of these to grow yourself.

Officially Single <3 :) ? Yea.. Just have a clear cut of it.. Guess that's the best for both of us. You know, you're really a wonderful person. Whoever that had on you the next, It's a bless. It was quite surprise for my friends, or even myself. As I could just Sacrifice literally Everything, even things I loves to do so much. But after awhile, by understand a relationship doesn't really work this way, and It's quite wrong to have it too.. But still, it was never a Regret being with you. 5Months+ , Could be a very part of the life I have, and the very mistake I won't make again :) ..

Footsteps might be remain at sight of ours, but the past is passed. We can't change it, but take it as a sign of Nostalgia for a little moment, that's enough. Instead of looking back all the sad one, replace the sand into the sorrow steps, and start making new footsteps that it's worthy.

Good Night Peeps, Time to sleep and work again tomorrow :(. Find me if you want :D ! I'm at Pavilion Bossini 5th Floor. Heh !