.....

i really hate u.. hate hate hate u..

stupid relationship i had. im stupid all the way

being stupid and blind, that he can't see and yet i doing so many thigns

U'VE NEVER APPRECIATE AND THINK AND LOOK INTO WHAT , WHO AND UNDERSTANDS ME.

COMMENTS , JUDGES , COMPLAINS THAT'S WHAT U ARE.

ALVIN. U'RE STUBBORN. F*CKING STUBBORN.

Speechless.. i dont

28 April 2010

Time To Reschedule all my Time ! D: !

Very Stress la in 4 Sc 3.. All So Smart :( .. Need TO Pump Up All My Studiess ! ROAR

26 April 2010

Back On Board ! :D Roar.

No More Detailed Information D: .. !

Stalkers, Is Everywhere >.<.

25 April 2010

Everything is end :D .
A relief of the past 3 days.. sorry and thank you to all my friends , family.. i know u guys were worry.. but thank you for letting me be alone..
well.. i guess i'll not gonna involve in any relationship til the day comes..I'll wait.. really i will.. tell me once u';re ready.. and im always 24/7 besides u.. even u are so far away.. i'll give it a second to appear infront of u.
Life, is just so interesting.. is just so challenging. with all these i know i grow.. even in spiritually.. playing piano and singing for u, God.. is the most joyful thing and a way to communicate and give all my burdens to u. You have a plan, a bigger and better plan for me. And i will just follow. I've experience .. when about to really fall , and never come back. God, u've pull me out .. up now..
i think i found another ambition ahahaha. Singer! xD :D. since im having a talent of musical instruments and interested so much. of course.. God i'll still serve u with my piano drum guitar and also vocal :D.
Ken, u're gonna back to ur old self that having a happy day and evangelism his Name. :D..

Take care my love ones. i know u're suffering with him .. just take some time know him. i believe he will care u, and u will find his good point. Please Mr.Kay. Take care of him.=)..

-Waiting..-

-Love is Patient, Love is Kind-

25 April 2010

Home Sweet Home after MIA.

Really dont wanna mention. and feel like go dig someone out and fist his face. which he doesn't have a manner =) .

Is ok ! Everything under controls :D . thank you friends and family for worrying for the past 3 days M.I.A . It does really give me a big changes and benefit.

23 April 2010

明天是你生日..哈哈..好想好想和你在上庆祝..但我没资格吧..今天和你在一起，吃喝玩乐，看戏，吹水等..真的真的很开心.. 虽然没去到游乐场，但无所谓..能牵着你的手..真的好温暖.. 对不起..一见面就让你不开心..离开时..也不开心..
这短短几星期..认识了你..好多，好多.. 我也不懂..为什么..会那么的爱你..做了那么多连自己也想不到会做的东西..做了好多第一次，愚蠢的东西..不搭车的我,少爷的我..竟然会想尽办法去陪你..去找你..
要哭，而不能哭的感觉..真的真的很辛苦..因为答应了自己..要给你个好看与开心的一天..答应不会流泪..看着自己爱的人最后一面..离开..从火车..望着你..真的..很心痛..很难过..忍不足哭了..
不想再写了..只好等待..
现在..心情真的很不稳定..看来我要消失几天..也是件好事..这个月..太多事情发生了..好累..好暴躁..

Due to an increase of 60 Stalker per day in 1 month and more gossips. I'll never post any other life problems and direct information in the blog after today.

-M.I.A-

Just A Little Message For Myself^^

God !!!!!!! U ! ARE ! AWESOME !

When Good Things Come , We Thank You.
When Bad Things Come, We Complain and Complains .

But You Know, I don't ! Because I am Thankful that You gave me so many life experience, that not everyone else had experience before. For a 16 Y.O guy like me, I'm extraordinary, Because of You, That makes this future for me. I Am Glad, That You've Gave Me So Many Problems, Without These and You. I wouldn't grow and will be stuck at the same Level.

Another Level come aheads, and now i will accomplish it wonderfully and happy ending :). Thank You , for everything you gave ! Because we all, Are sinners. and We know we need you to forgive us. Whatever that doesn't kills me, will only makes me more stronger ! Devil, You're always a failure to get rid of my life. so Get Lost :).

A Heart Before You, And A Heart After you. I'm Always The Same. Never Change. And Never Fade.

23 April 2010

A Relationship, Will be just Judges and Comments. I'm tired of it.
Now i know, i'm this kind of person to you, to everyone :).

-Sick Of It- Totally!

一个爱情，原来是给人批评，评审。好了，累了，对爱情，真的真的累了..
现在终于懂,原来我在你的眼是这样的一个人，在每个人的眼也是一样。
我无药可救吧？好！别理我，让我自灭。

好累，好伤，无觉了.

22 April 2010

.. What do i really want? I just don't know.. and is time for me to think what i want, what am i really want to be..
Prove. That's the thing.. But how hard it is?
Cry, Is the pain. How much Pain it Gets..
Apologize, Is the Key. But I Did it again.
Love, Is Totally Nothing. Without Actions But Only Words..
I'm Truely Sorry.. u know me well.. giving patients and love.. that is unsearchable.. Your love.. is just everything to me..
I Understands... I Really Really Do.. Give me some time.. and let me dare to make an actions.. to end everything..
Because Of Love.. We Both Known Cherish the Moments..
And now , im trying hard to climb back , and never fall again..
Thank You.. For Giving me Time..And Continue Love Me Although This is Such a Tough Time..
God Had Gave Me The Biggest Gift, Which Is You.. Really..
I Love You .. :)..

22 April 2010

只想你没事..我就开心了..

好烦..好乱..

21 April 2010

Another day .. in school. Very Nervous going out with someone today :P .. yeaa.. after school went Pavillion with him , watched Shutter Island. And it was a 3 hour movie. I advise Everyone. DO NOT watch this movie. Is VERY BORING. Very LAME and Very LONG..
Thanks Alot.. Really.. Very Happy Being with you today :) .. Thank You for accompanying me the whole day.. treating me eat also .. :D ..
Stupid Taxi.. RM16 back to my home from pavillion.. T_T..

After a happy happy day.. came back and check facebook .. well.. yea.. haha..
Is Love , Just So Complicated..?

I really really Hate people that hang up my call just not saying anything to end the conversation. is not the 1st time, and i still not angry at u, call u back. guess i won't even bother right now.

烦

烦烦烦..
好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦好烦....

20 April 2010

Nothing Special Today. I'm Still in Sick Condition.

Sorry, I can't be that extreme and emotional anymore.. I need to be calm and cool abit due to something.. i'll respect ur decision.. =) .. take ur time.. i won't rush u.. thank you.. for being patient with me.. ur the best =) .. i love you..

Guess i need to get a fast bath and good night rest early today.. hahaha.. =) .. til tomorrow ! :D Photos , here i comee :D

19 April 2010

I'll be a good good Kid tonight ! :( ! Since i'm having so many many many many sickness.. Well..
ADVISE OF THE DAY :-
DO NOT EAT MEDICINE AND THEN GO TO BATH .. YOU WILL PROBABLY END UP LIKE ME.. ALMOST FAINTED IN THE TOILET.. THANK GOD.. I DIDN'T FAINT.. Very De Dizzy = = !
Saw all the shampoo like walking around LOL..
Pray Pray Pray ! Care Care Care ! For Me ! =( .. This flu is just hurting me so much ! Arghhhhh ! i can't breath well.. and always feels so tired and wanted to sleep.. cause i just feel so badddd =( ..
Alrighttt ! Good Night Guys! Muackx =P !

18 April 2010

hahaha.. indeed.. tired Weekends after a stressful weekdays.. =) .. thank you very much everyone that accompanied me :P .. really appreciated .. :D

Well , went to KLCC , and for 2 DAYS ! OMG ! -_- ! well .. i didn't know that after a several years i didn't been there and i need to go there for 2 days in 1 shot lol -.- .. well do enjoyed my weekends there hahahahaha !

Know quite alot of new friends :D .. they are pretty funny, and friendly :D ..

Having a Hyper Bad Flu , And Still sick .. SIGH.... i just feel so difficult now .. = = so sick lar.. T_T .. pray for me not kena H1N1 Again lar har - -..
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This 2 days, walked by alot of places. Finally once again ! Kenneth Lee use public transport -.- lol .. still is bus and LRT + Trains somemore , can't believe it right? REALLY BROKE LAR.. ADUIH.. =( ..

These places.. and where me and you had walked.. walking , and laughing, and chatting.. hah.. say that already Give up, drop everything, never think already.. guess i'm the 1 who Bullshitting and fooling my own self.. Ends up.. i still remember every single scene of the venue.. every single scene we had..

Walked these places.. my heart , my mind , just started to ache.. feel like crying out.. but i can't.. i need to be strong.. i promised.. i'll forget the moment with you.. no matter what..

和你..感受到了所有的爱情..
好美满，好幸福..
但一切现在都失去了..
口说不爱,是假的...
而我自己..也不懂原来还爱着你..
对不起..
那条链..真的不想给你..因为我知道..给你了..会带给你回忆..
知道，你已经忘了一切..当我是好朋友..所以不想打断这念头..
这两天..走过许多和你一起走的地方..
脑里的我和你的时刻..统统出完来..
好心痛..好难过..好想哭..但哭不去..很辛苦..
才发现..原来..我还是爱着你的..
爱情..笨过了..就会醒觉..不会在笨过..
今天..你知道我感冒..你把你的外套，不顾你自己..便给了我穿..
我好害怕..也很想知道..你还是对我一样吗？我不想误会..不想乱想..
哈哈..李伟杰..口，死死说不爱..但现在呢..?
好啦..人家走啦..才来后悔..
我想..我也因该..学学他了..
明天！是新的一天！我会把全部记忆忘掉！全都忘掉！！
谢谢你..一路以来..都没放弃我..保护我..照顾我..
你要走了..真的真的..我很不舍得..但是其中..也是要放开你..
你！好好照顾自己！有什么事就打给我！
谢谢你..谢谢..所有的一切..
我会活得开开心心！你不用担心吧，哥！=)
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There's Someone for me to love now ! :D .. Why need to search when there's 1 infront of you already :) ! Treasure you, and appreciate you. is what i need to do only :) .. Thank You.. for staying with me.. staying with me even in the Storms and Thunders.. <3..

17th April 2010

Ishhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ! Early in the morning woke up by friends. Asking want to go PC Fair or not -.- actually not going 1.. well .. think think awhile ~ aiya, go lar.. since so free + i got things to buy ahahahaha..

Well had a fun fun fun day from morning til night . Guess what? I WATCHED CUTE TOOTHLESS AGAIN!! OMGGGG IT WAS SOO CUTEEEEEEEEEE I WANT A BIG TOOTHLESS PLUSHIE LARR ! =( .. I think i will watch my last time in 3D -.- lol.. am i crazy = =.. i never repeat watching a movie . but I DID.. this see how nice and to be frank it is really nice lar ! i will guarantee u become like me after u watching ! Craving and keep repeating Cute Toothless for the whole day ~!

Very happy larrr .. finally get to be so happy and talking to the person :D .. thank you.. for understanding me =) .. and pls dont give up things because of me ok :) ? 3 More days of Exam ! Wish you all the best and luck ! promise go out with u and treat u eat lar after ok ? =P <3

Well ! It is almost 2 oclock right now.. i just have no idea why i am so energetic today -.- ! i just feel like going to spend my night in those places( the P&C ). Too bad, didn't went for it. Because no one is free and i requested too late ! =( .. everyone went.. well is good also lar.. if i went my Love ones won't be happy =( .. so yea ! SEE I'M SO GUAIII :D ! Sayang me more okay ! <3<3

Fine larr .. will go bath right now, and after a sleep will go to church-.- ..

Hahahaha thank you Han Then , Logan and Sharon for sacrificing and spending a night time with me :D really appreciate and happy when being with u guys. Good Entertainment with you all xD ..

Alright ! Good Night Peeps !

16 April 2010

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Today, I just don't feel like doing anything.. i can't smile,i can't laugh,i can't chuckle..
very tired, very exhausted..
Just.. wish to be quiet .. really really dont feel like talking..
sorry mates, for worrying me.. thanks.. for accompanying me and making jokes to make me laugh.. =) ..

16 April 2010

6:39a.m. ready for school.. and gonna be a dreaming and bad day for Kenneth Lee..

Sigh..

15 April 2010

短短5分钟..就发生了事..好后悔打了给你..

你明白我吗..?
为什么每天和你谈天，你都这样计较时间？
好辛苦，你知道吗？ 我也没怪你或烦你，因为我不想影响你..
我真的不懂你在想什么，我觉得我对你很陌生...
你知道我关心你嘛？你知道我担心你吗？算了..心淡了..
为了你而流泪，你也因该不懂吧..
给你每一句活，都恨恨的插在心里..
好想你为了我，做些事，说些好听的话，等等..但全都没有..
总值，我所为你做的一切，你也不懂，你也不理。
看来是时候放手，因为你也不管与要珍惜。
你说笑就可以，但我不能。
真的，我忍了好久..
你好不明白人家对你的一番情意..
好失望，好难过..
跟你谈天，你总是好赶的和我说byebye =).
有心情就和我聊，没心情就发我脾气，我看脾气需改的是你。
真的，我是你玩具吗？
为什么你每天对我说了对不起，而又再犯，又在碎我的心..
我觉得我好笨..
好吧，再也不烦你了，
真的真的好无言，不想再说话了..
不是第一次了...
对不起，和谢谢你..
看来你的愿望达成了..
考试考好点..
好好照顾自己...

15 April 2010

Ah ! what can i say today -.- looks like my mind is kinda, -Blank- tonight..
Ermmmm..... O.O ! Well My Soar Throat is YET to recover -.- well soon i guess =( .. still pain pain T_T.. .37.5C of Fever and pretty lots of cough hmm.. Not H1N1, dont worry -.-...i'm still very alive and energetic ! :O
Well went yam cha with a new frienddd ! wooo , he's so friendly >.< ! and at the same time saw my tuition teacher's family, well the center boss -.- ..
Hmmm.. Guess i need to read my bible and do quiet time and go bed !

Thinking Of You =( ..

14 April 2010

Again -.- I'm Sick ! And Didn't went for school.. Well i changed and went for it , cause my Mom FORCED and INSIST me to go. ( well as u know all mom doesn't believe their own child sick and just want them to study , and there's no point u know.. yea yea.. ) O well .. half way there, headache. So went back home to sleep. * clap clap *
Consulted Doctor, Fever + Cough + Throat Infection + Flu + Headache = 2 Days MC. Guess i will go school tomorrow la.. got alot of stuff to do lar, gonna be like 1 stack of homework if i keep delay and skip school - -...
Alot Alot of extraordinary things happened.. but i guess is Over.. :) .. God u've took all the sorrows, all the shames and all the darkness out from me. And I will try my best, not to fall again.

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加油考试！

期待..

期待..

期待那天的到来=D

谢谢你！

....

好累，好累..
好烦，好烦..
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Tired.. Very Tired...
Vexed.. Very Vexed..

To Anonymous.

Maybe by telling me u won't read. U will still =) Because i know , u will.

Telling shits to me. I'm tired of listening. Telling me , We are Brother. Come share with me bla bla bla.

Do u think i really believe 100% what u're saying? HAH ! trying to dig stuff from me? Not so easy at all .. lol.. just choosing a right time to expose urself out =) .. I'm Totally Speechless. SPEECHLESS WITH YOU..Now I Know Who you are . who are you really , D.L.S.C :)

Telling Me ? 分手已是朋友 ? PUIH ! PUIH PUIH PUIHHHH ! I'm treating u as a friend. o No, i should say treating u as a bro, well for real i do =). For you? What u treating me? Why do u still care since u already say so? Even if i like another person already, does it seems anything related to u? U're well disappointed me deeply once again, =) .. i never believe and know that u're like this, and speaking these words to me? *clap*

To be frank, yes, i do still have feelings to u. But i know, there's no more way back. because when Kenneth Lee say give up on certain things. HE, will never pick it up again. Just like when a thing drop into the cliff or a high moutain, he won't be that stupid to jump down to save that thing but not himself.

I really really don't know what to say.. it seems very speechless..
What i wish is only become a friend with u.

If u don't want=) Delete me, delete me in ur mind even.

really really.. disappointed and depress..

13 April 2010

Hey Guys ! Guess What !? I'm Finally SICK today ! YAY ! -.-.. Went school today.. but after an hour decided to go back.. feel very very heaty and having a bad bad headache =( ..
Well .. Rested at home the whole morning.. wanted to go for a doctor.. but i guess don't need to waste this kind of money.. so yea.. just drank loadsss of water =) .. As usual have tuition from 5 - 7 Chemistry. and 8 - 10 Physics.. Although im so sick =( .. but these 2 are such a important subject to me ! =( !

Decided not to sleep tonight :D .. Due to some issues.. well .. good also ! can do quiet time :P .. ! and communicate with my best friend Jesus and Heavenly Father :D .. ! Finish reading and doing the Roots And Wings XD .. ( Well is like a few weeks i didn't touch that Bible Study book .. LOL )

Suddenly Crave for McDonald's Nuggets.. So yea.. Da Bao-ed Medium set.. and FINISHED EVERYTHING UP -_- .. And Congratulation .. My Sore Throat get Worse -.- .... My Brain too Active lar.. how how how .. = = .. im having like 38.5C fever yet im like so energetic lol

Argh.. just so many things comes to me in this few weeks.. yet feel very vexed.. very tired.. and very exhausted.. and with all these stupid Headaches, Fever, Cough, Sore-Throat, Muscle Pain, HeartAche as well as the wound of operated heart =( guess i need to see doctor? DONT WANT WASTE MONEY ERHH..

Hope i'll be fine soon.. haha..

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想到你要走了..
一下让我回想到很多很多的时刻..
其实..
我们经历了也不少吧..
我们都成长了多吧..
我们也学会了珍惜吧..
还记得吗..这是真的..
和你在一起的时刻..总是过得特别快..特别的灿烂..
牵着你的手，好温暖，好幸福..
好坏念..真的真的好坏念..那种感觉..
被你感动,被你惊喜..
是我人生的第一次..
好开心..也很伤心..
因为现在..没有人可以让我那么的快乐了..
每人还能代替你的地位..
找到了..但目前..都没什么进展..
但是..我们总分开了..
分手还是朋友..
无论是什么..
我们都还是兄弟=）..
祝福你..

12 April 2010

Moods Swings Just Badly These Days.. Sigh.. Hopefully will be better after some days..No worries..^^ I'm Having a Bad Fever now I Guess.. And I think the Heart Wounds started to pain again.. Feel like Going for Travel.. Who wanna bring or accompany me? hahaha.. Feel like going beach lar.. well.. for a long long time already wished to go for a short vacation. A Vacation that no phones or whatever are allowed. But Just -Relax- Just feel very tiring these day.. don't know why lar.. like weak already .. lol .. My Heart have so many many many things to say >.< ...

Arhhh.. Better Just Go Finish Up My Left Out -DO- Schedule for the Day, And Go To Bed Early..

THINK LESSER , KEN .

Back On Board ...

What is this. What is this mood again? WHY .. WHY IS IT COMING BACK ! FUCK SHIT I DONT WANT IT U KNOW ! WHY .. I REALLY DONT KNOW WHY I FEEL SO STRESS PRESSURE AND VEXED ALL THE WAY..

My head is so full .. i've been thinking so much. so much... i never stop thinking every second.. i don't know what is the main exact point that caused me like this.. Please.. I don't want to back to the old Emo me.. This few months.. is been so wonderfully happy.. WHY IS IT AGAIN.. IS IT BECAUSE OF YOU .. I JUST CAN'T LET IT GO..

I just feel i'm so lack of care, i just feel there's no 1 here for me.. Who will understands me? who will ask me, How Are You Today? I'm the 1, that will only becoming stupid and asking and updating myself with people.. why there's no ppl update me.. why there's no 1 come to me.. why there's no 1.. even give me a tap of my back..

I don't want the days that i always full of tears .. i really hate it.. I HATE IT ALOT !

WHAT THE HELL WRONG WITH ME AGAIN .. I NEED REST.. I NEED A REST FROM EVERYTHING ! I REALLY WANNA M.I.A ! OFF MY PHONE.. DISAPPEAR MY SELF FOR A FEW DAYS OR WEEKS..

Been thinking going for travel and relax myself.. but who will bring me? who will accompany me? i guess no one will.. i will be going alone if i really want to.. playing with my self.. talking to my own hand..

I hate this.. i really really hate this, that is coming back to me.. i dont want to update my blog with emo emo stuff like 3 times a day..

I just want to see a difference.. I'm ALWAYS DESPERATE TO WAIT FOR UR CALL ASKING ME HOW AM I ..

I Need to pay my tuition fees , i need to pay my bills, i need to pay my piano fees.. i need to pay my phone repair fees, i need to pay for my own books and all the stuff..
I Never ever WORKED before.. and now i really need to.. Work just to survive..

Family facing huge financial problems.. and i really really can't help up.. i felt so useless..
I dont know what kind of rubbish mood is this..
I'm Sick Of Being Like This.. Totally Feel Like Going to Jump or Whatever..

I Wanna Go Heaven Faster.. Someone just come and kill me? Free kills - please call me. We meet up and u can just kill me without ppl noticing ..

I just need comfort and care.. Is that so hard..?

11th April 2010

Arhh ! I just re-arrange and decorate my personal Bulletin Board In My House ! :D

Again, It's the end of weekends le >< .. Why lar so fast.. T_T .. tomorrow school again. Aduihh .. Need to stress again ! Aduihh ! ARGHH FAST LAR FAST LAR.. NO PHONE NO CAMERA = NO PICTURE .. MY BLOG IS TOTALLY WORDS AND WORDS AND WORDS ! BORING HOR ! -_- ! i know :( Today was a totally busy day for morning til evening. Stayed back to listen to Dr.Peggy talk after church service :D . Interesting stories and also testimonial. If we believe and have faith. We will see things happen :) ! We don't need to plan our life and our way , Because God has already planned for us. and is all bigger and the best plan ever. Because He, is the creator of each and everyone of us. He know's what we are processing. We can Lie everyone, EVERYONE. But not our Heavenly Father :) Was pretty pissed with dad .. He actually willing to bring that BITCH and SLUT out, but not bring me for dinner. I'm totally speechless.. giving 1st 2nd 3rd SMS. Jam Lar > Headache Lar > Busy Lar. Then keep calling also no answer.. pro Bullshiter..-_- .. though he never says he is with that female dog. well .. already knows.. No choice lar.. well .. he's still my dad- -.. sighhh .. Luckily i have a much much more greater and better Dad/Father. In Heaven :)

Well .. Still thinking and decorating my blog.. planning to change a new theme . new site and layouts :)

School School Go Away , Never Come Again In Another Day :(..
HOMEWORKSS NOOO .. I NEED TO RUSH ALL MY HOMEWORKS AFTER DINNER -_-

Feel Very Vexed..
Well .. Currently And Recently Having Loads Of Problems And issue To Be Solve.. ><.. Sighhh ... Aghh.. <3>

10 April 2010

Guess I'm Having Lots Of Things To Talk And Type.. Probably.. To Alot Alot Of Person? Just See The Paragraph.. lol ..
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Today was quite a busy day.. Woke at 11 o'clock. Went for breakfast with friends and then went to church for Sunday Practice , Guitar Lesson , Youth Practice and then Youth Meeting .. then Jamming for awhile. And went for dinner :) .. Celebrate Pre-Birthday with Him..

Believe It This..As From Now On.. I'll Treat people Better..
When You Treat A person Well.. Eventually You will get back a Well Rewards..
When You Treat a person Badly.. Eventually You Will Get Back Worse Than It, And Reflect How You React..
It's Like, Just Go Round And Round.. You Will Get Back What You've done.. And Feel It.. The process.. The Whole Thing.. EVERYTHING .. THAT'S IT !

God.. I've Cried Out To you.. That Take This Burdens.. Take These Heavy Bags.. That Full Of Burdens Away From Me.. Throw Them Away.. Not Recycle But Throw them Away.. No 1 Understands Me God.. I Just Hope you will Appear In my Eye.. In My Dream Once Again After This Long Long Long Period.. I Just Hope you Will Give me A Warm Hug.. And Comfort Me..

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The first thing.. I thought of is you.. I mean.. yea.. is you..
I know u just a few days.. but do u know how important and meaningful are u to me? Guess u wouldn't know and even care about it right.. Sorry to say about that.. maybe is because i'm lack of care right now..
Or I should just blame myself? That is because i treat my previous 1 like that? So it came back as a reward to me? Seriously with no joke.. you are like me, and i am like him..
Exams is important i know.. i just wish u can don't so cool and just sacrifice a bit of time for me? is that so hard?
U doesn't want me to know anything of u as i really want to.. Not even your full name? Hah.. Am I a pure stupidity person ? That Care you So Much ..
I'm sorry for being annoying for this few days..But I just hope that.. u will understands me.. just tell me directly face to face if ever u think I'm giving u stress..
Looking at the phone.. waiting for it to rang.. Disappointed once again..well is ok.. study is important..
Feel like giving up.. Don't know how long I can hang on u know.. I've tried my best to change and make u happy with me.. That's all ..
As in a deep conditions of depressions right now.. i hope u will just concern about me a little bit more .. just a 1% is more than enough.. i'm happy already ..
By knowing that u don't really care and concern is easy.. never understands my heart.. not even a single percent.. but I Know You.. :) ..
but i'm happy being with you.. Knowing you .. really :) .. i'm happy whenever i thought of u and hear your voice.. hahahaha.. am i crazy ..?
once again , Sorry . For disturbing you, Annoying you.Giving Attitudes.. or whatever it is, making u unhappy.. i'll never do it again..
I've never been mad. But alittle bit of Disappointment.. Guess I need to stop expecting things to happen.So yea.. Don't Worry About Me, And don't feel Offended If You Ever Read this..
O Yea, Bought something to you.. ahahhaa..
Wish You.. Score well in your exams !
I'm always here to encourage and give u cheers :) Whenever you are , and whatever you are.. is still the same to me..

Just hope.. you will Change. And As Well .. I'm Changing already.. If you think i'm wrong, Drop what i said. Ignore what i write :) Be Yourself, That's What I want..

I've never regret knowing you, even though u're unhappy.. i really feel guilty and bad of it .. do u know ?

I've so much things to write and tell u.. u've make me done the most damn thing ever and i didn't know i dare to say OUT infront of so many people ! ARGGHH i gonna struggle u ! lol ! <3

You know who u are :P ..
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Ah ! YOU !
4 Years Walking, without any tiredness ! lol ! though we are not physically here. Guess our heart it is ! =P ..
we both have the same perception . and the same priority places :)
We are always putting God before our Relationship :)
Simplest form : I'll Only Accept If He Loves God 1st.

When Are You Coming back man ! Don't keep me waiting lar -.- ! :( ..
I Don't know what to say lar, u know lar. we both were like walking soooo wonderfully and talking everyday and night = = :D !
Though we get screwed because of the phone bills LOL ! Is really funny lar -.- guess dont call so much >< later our parents gonna kill us once again = =....

Arghhhh ! :D:D:D <3 You

Definitely Everyone Knows Who's I'm Mentioning LOL ..

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Hah..
Thinking of you.. It's just make me like.. goes through all the highest mountains and also the lowest tunnels.. We both grown up alot , isn't it? we've learnt to treasure ppl, appreciate ppl. isn't it? :) ..
We've gave up both, the things we love most.. and yet.. we walked till the day.. :) .. i've never regret knowing you and being with u.. is such a wonderful thing.. that gave me such an experience..
I've gave up of u, because of God. Maybe u think that im idiot or stupid or whatever.. Because i just gave up the 1 i love most , just because it is not right.. and it stated in the Bible.. For me, i care.. Because i know. He Exists, And he is watching me whenever .. every second.. watching over me..
I guess it will takes a long time for both of us, to really become back normal friends and siblings isn't it ..? Yet now my heart is still aching.. i'm regret right now u know.. i've feel what u have feels.. sorry.. because of my busyness.. i left out of u recently.. i know.. u never give up .. to gain back the love and also repair back the broken vase.. but it can't be original again..
In another way.. guess what.. i 've regret.. i really hope i can repair and stick it back.. force it to be original.. but i think.. i'm the 1 .. should say.. is too late.. because.. i've never really cherish and appreciate you.. i've never seen a people.. like you..
maybe no 1 knows what u've did for me.. but i know.. i really really know.. you're the greatest person ever.. whoever that have u, is their fortune :) ..
Sooner , u will leave KL .. and back to ur hometown.. back to ur studies.. which we both will more distance in communication..
Whatever it is.. my phone is always 24/7 .. call me or msg me .. i will always willing to lend my ears to you :) ..

Thank You.. For giving me such a memorable and good experience of 1month + ..

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CHRIST OF BROTHERS AND SISTERS ! YOOO !

ARGHH YOU KNOW WHAT? IS THE GREATEST PRIVILEGE KNOWING U ALL ! Being with you all never give me tears or sorrow.
We've grown up together, in spiritual , physically, and also mentally :) .. looking back to the old photos and those days, were really funny and cute of us ! hahahahahhahaa ! You all, are the best buddies and family i ever have :) !
Learning And Knowing Our best friend Jesus, and also our Heavenly Father.. Together.. We Share Things.. Together We Share Our Pains .. Together We Holding Hands, And Go Through All The Things :) !

Dai Kor Dai Jie :)

your encouragement and advise are really appreciated ! without u guys leading me the path.. i guess i'm already with Lucifier lol ! U've shown we the way and pull me out whenever i fall .. Thank you :) ..

the Older 1 ..
Guess What? It's A LAUGHTER OF EVERYDAY ! Going out with u all ! Blow Water, Bullshitting, And sharing secrets .Man ! is always a good time being with u all :D ! Thanksss :D

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I'm an extraordinary guy=). I dare to say, that i'm not those 16 years old people :) .. yea i am, but mentally . not :)
Having lots of Events to be organized again :( .. Gatherings, Activities ~~ ARGHH
>< ! I Guess It's gonna be the 1st Prom Night ever for the school next year LOL ..
Ahhhhh ! is a 2000 Words Essay, or even more than that.. I think i can't even write that during my exams LOL .. Arghhh need to go bath already lar ! then do my prayer and quiet time !

Pray For Me Guys. :) .. Everything and For the Peace of God, Enter to my heart. Once again.

<3<3

09 April 2010

Another day, School > Recess > Duty > Eat And Go Home.. I'm gonna continue this for the next 15 months til i drive and 19 months til i finish my SPM = =..

Went for Facial today.. actually thought of going hang out with Vince and Sam they all.. well guess i'm pretty lazy and tired.. just stay at Home mop the floor lol.. I'm so Obedient and Guai right? Rarely see that ? ahahahah i know i know xD..

Guess i'm back to my Lonely Life. Who can fill this emptiness and replace back everything? Is You.. Yes .. You.. God.. Not 1 Can Fill The Emptiness of Love but only You can do it :)..
And comes to the 2nd priority , i guess u know who you are right ? by reading this blog ? ahahaha.. whenever talks to u and also think of you.. i'll just feel like calling you and missing your voice :( i really love u =)...

Haihz.. After Facial stupid face become red red.. no more Clean and Clear=(.. guess need to wait for another few days to back to normal skin ? ahahahaha.. handsome back soon i guess bwahahaha ( perasannya )

Getting Use to the Guitar =D .. guess I can start playing well for the next 2 weeks :D .. Still in a hardcore practicing..

Thinks that i need to start workout ! I getting my 6 packs off :( .. nooooooo ..

Finally i saw Weekends Again ! Time to relax myself and have a break ! blekkk :P ....

07 April 2010

Very Very Firstly ! Happy Anniversary to Miss Jerrica Liau ! hahahah : ) Well what i wanted to tell u , told u already lar.. hahahaha ! shhhhh....

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .. MY TOOTHLESS OMG ! I HIGHLY ENCOURAGE AND INTRODUCE THIS FAVORITE MOVIE OF MINE ! IS TOOO NICE LAR !



ISN'T IT TOO CUTE ? AHHHHHHH I WANT THE SOFTTOY MAN ! I Never Ever have such a stupid Crave for a Cartoon - - ! btw the storyline and overall of the movie, is really really good ! Go Watch it ! and u will really like it ! a movie picker like me also love it ! it brings alot of emotional and also moral story. Arghhhh My Toothless >< ! NightFuryyyyyy !

Today went for Prayer meeting, due to I already stopped my Malay tuition lol :D .. It Questioned , How Do You Know God's Love Is With You, And How you Know that He Loves You?

I guess a simple quote will do.

Without Love, There's Hatred. With Hatreds, There's No Love.
No Hatreds Will Ever Do Good Things To You, But The Love Ones Will Always do Best Things For You.

Today, Without God. I'm Another Kenneth Lee i guess. I'm 1 of the Seafood ( lala ) in the timesquare. or even gangster in school ? God just change me miraculously ! Without noticing, you're eventually changed throughout the days. Well , I always sense God. That he is always in me, Though i dont see him Physically. But i Hear Him. He's always beside me, Advise me. Leading Me To The Right. But because he Loves us, He allows us to Drop into Temptation and also Darkness. but He, also knows the limit of us. That he always Pulled me Up, whenever I'm start to Dissolve into the hand of Satan. See , How Great Is My God? Just alittle Faith and trust of a mustard seed. I Believe. You'll see a different in urself too. Ever know that Because of God Loves. I'm not Deaf. wanna know more about my story ? MSN or Call Me La ! xD !

Just a Little Thought Throughout the Weeks..
Well , I Guess. Everyone ! no just Me. But Everyone. Appreciate, Appreciate And Appreciate. Treasure, Treasure and Treasure. Cherish, Cherish and Cherish. Take Care. Of all the things you have right now. All the things means relationship, your family, your friends etc. Why do you always mumble or regret. When certain things are gone, and broken? Quotes. A Broken Vase, Will Never Be Original No Matter How You Stick It Back. After you said something, or done something. Then don't expect or say Sorry. Not to say Sorry is not good. What i mean is. Why do u wanna do that in the first place? when u already know that you will regret? i mean, is a waste of effort or whatever. Things will just get numb. And also the surrounding people that u affected. So why friends? Let's Start cherish each and every moment and day we have. Happy Another Day Passed, NOT Happy also Another Day Passed. Why don't we choose to live happily instead :)?

My Mind just getting more and more thoughts each days. Facts and Reality. The World now. Is really effecting us. Technology, Acceptions, Perceptions Acts. We need to live in the Way how Jesus lives. And Live in a Right Way with a Purpose ! Stop Letting The World , Pollute. Your. White. Mind. * There Are 9 Black Sheeps, and 1 White Sheeps. Eventually The White, will automatically turn into Black too :) *

Arghh ! I Quitted Games ! haha, Well for the past few Months already did ! I Mean. I DID IT ! OVERCOMING those useless time with games ! haha, using these time. To do something more meaningful. Even calling up my GF and BF is better than staying and glue-ed in front of the Computer :P. Guess i'm having Course Works with loads ! and also assignments and designs for School Webs ! ahaha !

Guess What ! God Sent 2 Person to me ! And I'm Glad ! I Get To Evangelism Them ! And Yea ! THEY ACCEPTED CHRIST ! :D Amen!

O Yea! Met A New Friend ! He's Pretty Nice And Cute ! hahaha ! the Way he speaks and react haha ! Glad to know u bro ! U bring more laughter to me these few days hahaha !

WOW ! Didn't know i just typed like.. Hmmm ..
Needddaaa SleeeeEeeeP ! Good Nighttttt my Fans And Peeeeeeeeps !

04 April 2010

WOO! Such a LONGGG Time didn't update blog >< ! Well Happy Easter Day ! Thank God ! U Have Won The War ! The Victory Is Belong To Us ! People Who Believes In You. And Thank you God, that u send your one and only son to this world. That Jesus just sacrifice himself and die just to take away all our sins..

It was a pretty amazing year this year. full of surprises. full of joy. and also full of emotional of course, well as usual xD! ahhaha. Was very very the busy, EVERYDAY. I mean, E V E R Y D A Y ! I MEAN IT ! MANNN WHAT A LIFE !

Woootssszz.. i just found out that i'm kinda blind. what blind? love blind i guess. I'm Lazy to CARE , i'm lazy to SPEAK , i'm lazy to CONCERN , i'm lazy to THINK , i'm lazy to LEAD , ETC ETC.. Arghh thank God, opening my Eyes, and take away all my doubts and depths. God u're awesome .. :) .. well i guess i'm also totally Numb already. Just as numb as how my mom always mumble me and it doesn't shake my emotion and also left ear in and right ear out. Sorry to say that, but is all facts and true. 分手已是朋友。=) .. Don't thank me for thinking that way, Thank God that he takes away all the hatreds from me towards you :) i've seem so much of this world. and i think there's more and more coming :). And i hope u will keep ur promise :) i will pray for u , no worries.

God, i will never have broken promises again. i will follow ur plans and also the way u shown me. Like u said to me, why do you ( me ) not walk the Direct and Straight path that i already made for you, and u still insist to walk a big round and back to the central point and start walking just a little bit? =) now i understands . i will follow ur words and not walking the split road nor round-a-bouts.

Jerrica Liau ! I want you to know that U're the BEST BEST BEST GF I EVER HAVE IN THIS WHOLE WORLD.. I LOVE U ! I MEAN IT . AND YES . I WILL TREASURE U AND NEVER EVER DO SILLY THINGS AGAIN OR SORRY TO U ! MY PROMISE TO U ! <3

Thank You Leaders, for praying and helping me . I will be " Guai " dont worry xD !

Arghh I NEED PHOTOS IN MY BLOG MAN .. IS SO BORED THAT FULL OF WORDS ! Well all the photos actually at , Facebook -.-