26th August 2010

I Still Can't Give Up, I Still Can't Forget, I Still Can't Move On.. I'm Stuck In This Track ...
Life Would Been Missing Something Always Without You.. And It Does Not Really Mean Anything So..
I Just Think Of You Too Much Recently..

16th August 2010

Always Finish The Race. Never Leave A Starting Without An Ending. Make A Conclusion In Whatever We Do.

15th August 2010

God Loves Are So Great, He Loves Everyone, Includes The Gays And Lesbians. The Sinners. Killers And Whoever. But which is important is to Repent And Confess. That He Even Gave Us An Authority To Request And Ask From Him. And He Who Will Promise To Give For What Is Right.

-Ask , And It Will Be Given To You ; Seek , And You Will Find ; Knock , And It Will Be Opened To You. For everyone who asks receives, and who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened-
Matthew 7:7-8

Nothing But All Left Behind..

I Want to be like a kid.
Just Naive.
Just Dumb.
Just Someone that knows nothing.
Just A Kid that Doesn't need to care and worry about tomorrow.
That just play, running around.
When tired then sleep.
When hungry then get feeded.
Being Guided, Being Leaded, And Being Holded To Walk To The Right Way..

If I were a Kid.. It wouldn't happen so many things.. Because I Wouldn't Know So Much Things..And I Wouldn't Created so many things...

I Know, how much u had been hurt.. I really really knows.. I'm really regret.. although I really looks happy, but everyday something is missing..Every night before sleep.. I will automatically refresh back, all the footsteps.. all the happiness.. and then I saw myself.. burning it all away.. and become dust that never can be repaired and back to it's original..
The sun shines on me today.. and I saw my own shadow.. Just behind it.. I asked the shadow..
Why, Why did u did all the things.. Why do you need to do it, and now regret.. Billions of Questions pops up, and i walk and asked the shadow, my self, dumbly..
I Walked pass a place, Which actually have beautiful views and flowers around.. but today, it's wiped off to dry land..
Is Like A Wonderful Relationship.. That full of Colourful Flowers..Beautiful Scenario.. But 1 Hand, Wipe Off Everything.. Tearing Apart All Scenario. Spraying Biochemical Toward all The Flowers.. And became a Dead Relationship..
So far away, I wish u were here.. Now there's no more you, by myside.. there's no more you, by my life.. walking and accompanying me, Holding My Hands, Or Even Telling Me , Don't Give Up..

I've Intensively did and done all these ! I shouldn't complain.. Is me who caused.. I Have No Right to even speak a word..

All I Want, Is Just Another Last Last Last Chance..
All I Want, Is Just Your Forgiveness..
I Really.. Don't Want To Repeat And Loss You Again If I Have The Chance..

13th August 2010

Owhhh ! Another Day ! Puasa Started and Realizing that time passed like thunders. Is August ! And there, my exam is like zooming into my eyes.

Trying My BEST to not online as in Facebook . Facebook is just such a Addict to me ! I bet is not only me u know ! arghh.. Whenever I On my computer, the 1st thing is clicking into Mozzila Firefox. And the 2nd Thing is clicking the Facebook Bookmarked link just below the Address Bar. And there ! Facebook for an Hour. U Know what ! F5 is just like my Best Friend. Clicking It and Refreshing To see What's The latest and recent Updates. Is totally lame but everyone is doing it ! ahhhh ! I Think i should open a centre for all those Facebook addicts, i think i can earn quite alot though hahahaha !

Si Chan Chen and Vincent. You 2 memang sibeh dua ! Always don't wait for me, worse thing is the reason is forget about me ! THAT'S SO HURT MAN ! WTF ! Ishhhhh ! Feel like big palm big palm slap u 2 -_-.. ! nvm , i'm kind enough to forgive u -_- ! DONT REPEAT AR! NOT ONCE LER AR ! ISHHH !

Went out with Mr/Miss Zoeric. LOL . well the dinner was awesome wonderful ! I FORGOT TO TAKE PICTURE . ARRR ! The Shrimps , Sotongs and Fish are totally YUMMY ! And had a great time and talk with him lar of course :P. And after dinner yam cha with Ken Chiong. Intro him to Zoeric. Hope there's a Fire Spark Occurs ! MUAHAHHAA ! If really does, KEN CHIONG ~ U OWE ME A MEAL XD !

Back home, as usual. FACEBOOK -.-. and Gaming awhile. then Back to my Studies and doing my exercises. :P..

And now. I'm TIRED. Wouldn't wanna type anymore ! Orhh My Bedd ! Here i comeee :P!

11th August 2010

I Should Starts To Face It..

I Should Starts To Realizing It..

I Should Starts To Climb Back Up By Myself..

I Should Starts To Wipe Up All My Tears..

I Should Starts To Forget Everything About The Past..

Because You're No Longer Mine..

Because I'm No Longer Yours..

Because You've Leave Me..

And I Should Let You Go ..

07 August 2010

I Remember 4 Years 4 months and 11 days ago. Is my first sight on you. And I have a strong feeling towards you. Telling myself U're gonna be my 1st Girl. Looking at your charming face. I Smiled inside my heart.

I Remember the First time talking to you in Pre-Teen. You didn't reply me anything but just nod your head. And I actually introduced myself.

I Remember the First time you talking to me, telling me " Hey, Remember to come Pre-Teen ". And I Started to go after that.

I Remember the way you laughed and chuckle. And changed my Bad mood to a very happy me.

I Remember the day you told me you likes my chuckle alot. And I smiled very dumbly the whole day.

I Remember the day we went out to pavilion, and I tease you just eating 2 fish ball. And I finished the whole bowl of left out for you.

I Remember the day I told you I Love you, And you laughed silently and said yes thru the phone. And changed me.

I Remember you telling me to study hard, and I scored so well for the next exam..

I Remember that we both can't sleep, If we never chat at least an hour in the phone every night.

I Remember that whenever you runs out of credit, no matter how poor am I , i will still dig all my money and give it to you.

I Remember you gave me a hug, that I felt the most warm and my tears was out.

I Remember the day we at Sunway Pyramid holding hands for a short moment shyly, but both of us was so happy and satisfied.

I Remember the day you told me Bryan broke your legs, that i was so angry and i wanted to go find him although i dont know him and break his leg. And u shouted so long and badly at me telling me dont. And I listen to you.

I Remember how painful and hurtful when i saw your sad face.

I Remember I didn't sleep for 4 days and drunk every night because we quarreled and u ignored me.

I Remember how much we both meant to each other.

I Remember we prayed so hard for the rain to stops, and attend the Last Youth of yours. And for the farewell Party..

I Remember I Cried So Badly When i Walk out Of The Restaurant Without Letting You Saw Me.

I Remember I Hurt So Much And Endures My Tears See-ing You Walking Out Of The Church On The Last Sunday Service You Attended. And Cried In The Toilet For Almost Half An Hour..

I Remember I was super emo and depress for the 1st month when you flew to Australia. And I took sleeping pills every night.

I Remember Our Anniversary Is At December 7th.

I Remember Your Face, Your Smile, Your Everything Into my Heart..

Thank you for staying with me. All the though times. That makes you hurt so much. Pain that never be describe.. And now the time is here for me to really puts down.. and really u did the right thing.. leaving me..
I've no doubt for your love for me. Because I know is true and real. With no excuse and reason..I Still believe in God, if we meant to be together. We will.
This relationship, is my one hand destroyed it.. No one to blame but me. You've tried and played your role. IS me that never follow the rules. And from a most perfect love relationship turns out to be the most rotten and worse relationship.
I know that you are gonna be my first Girl, and also my Last Girl. Like i said.. I wont have another girl anymore.. Because I have no feelings to anyone else..
You're appearing mades my days goes wild and happy. I've not regret being with u. Thank you for choosing me , and loving me. It's a total pleasure.. And a dumb choice for you falling to this stupid idiot silly fella..
We both grown.. and I pray for you everyday.. just be happy and stay with the Lord.
You're the perfect girl. No one beats you. No one knows what's your history. Endurance or Limits of Tolerate. But I Know.. You're really a beautiful, charming and perfect girl.
You may not be the no.1 is everyone eyes. But to me, You are the champion always..
IF I would have a chance to choose again. I will choose not taking this path. I will not repeat what i've done. I will just stay with me til the day we both goes to Heaven. But everything is too late.. is all ruin by me..
I Missed You Everyday.. And I Won't Stop To Love You.

Please. Forgive Me . For all the things i did. For all the things i've done. For all the things that i've ruin..

04 August 2010

By Time Passing, Rather Staying On The Same Position, I Should Move Forward. Since there's no more going back, and I don't think I can change myself anymore. I'll Just continue the way like this.

Because Of You, Appearing Into My Life. I Don't Need To Be The Blues 1 Anymore. I'll Be The Yellow 1 , With The Bright Smile. And Be Myself Again.
Thank You For Being With Me :). May We Last.
<3 !

Exam is Coming Again ! Time To Buckle Up All My Studies And Strike For The Highest Aim :).