30th September 2009

Wooohooo Finished My PSP's Final Fantasy Tastic >

Helping Advertise :P ! Is Really A Nice Game ! :D

Currently Very Busy !

Very The Busy AHHH !!
BOOKS , BOOKS AND BOOKS @_@

27th September 2009 ( 2 )

Aa... went out for hair cut ~ and then dinner ! HAIIHH TML SCHOOL REOPEN LE T_T !! Need study since PMR is around the corner already >< ! Good Luck To Me !

My New Hairstyle~! Which make me look much more younger -_-!

27 September 2009.

Not Emo-ing.. but very tired..and heart broke..

Recently.. alot of things happened again.. but lesser.. especially my server and my family.. haih.. mm.. i just know that im very exhausted and tired towards my works and everything that im handling..

should i really.. just .. close it..?

26th September 2009

Nothing Special Today ! Aaa .. Happy day Wahahaha ! Donno what to post la, post some rubbish SS :P !

25th September 2009

AAAAAA NO MORE EMO AHAHAHAHA !!

September End le ! Exam Is Near !!!!! @.@.@.@.@.@ """" !!!!
Very lazy and donno type what la, i want sleep only U KNOW WHAT TIME IZZIT ANOT NOW !AAAAAAAAAA IS 4 OCLOCK ALREADY EHHH HH !!! So Early Sleep hor me :D !?
Enjoy Some Ollllddd Photo :D :P :3

24th September 2009

IS 24th September !

1ST , I wanna Say " HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NUBCAKE GABBY ! " Just celebrated with the mosttttt convenient and unforget plans! Skype hahaha .. sing birthday song :P

I think i really need to Forgive and Forget.. and have a break through on my dam emo .. I'll speak out loud to the Devil everytime they tried to control me. They can control everything but my mind and my mouth !

I Gonna 1 Month no Emo ! This is what i promise here and to everyone ! No Matter What! I'll Post Happy Joyful Photos Again Every weekends nor days.. :D!

1 Peter 2:2 = Words Of God For the Day.. Is So Real..

Another Emo Day

Changed My blog Title For temporary Period.

PMS today again, alot of things happened. dont feel like talking so much.
Conclusion : Another Emo Emo Day

-The End-

Somethings Happened, And I Know..

I thought that after yesterday i would be a few days normal and happy.. Yes.. in the morning for awhile.. but no after back to home..
The server always crash my head off other than crashing my databases.. well .. thanks to Gabby la..
Actually today night having BBQ at my dad's place.. out of sudden my bro and dad fights.. and again .. it reminds me of the scene that i will never forget again.. and here i starts to get more depressed..
met up with friends..again.. fake smile ? fake laugh ? why is it so fake everytime i need to make untill.. i have no idea why i think... NO Offence. Without me, u guys wouldn't know each other..
is this the real me in my heart? or just that another person has entered in me.. i feel different everyday .. every moment.. and i really donno i'm what kind of person.. and what direction should i choose to move..
i would in maple wuwuwuwu wuaaa nyaa pata pata pon.. but somehow i know theres ppl know that i'm not really that happy.. as they msn and ask how r u..
I Was thinking this.. i would'nt need anyone's care right now.. i just wanna be alone.. and learn how to fight.. but i found it.. night by night is hurting me till tears..
what i know is.. i changed.. i really really changed.. from good enduresers to a hot tempered 1.. that i sometimes takes ppl's words so seriously .. that i would just say something that hurts ppl .. that what i won't do previously..
I'm lost.. lost of soul..
I've been so many worries now..
Family..
Friends..
Ownself..
Relationship..
Personals..
Lifestyle..
God's Will..

i really don't know how to say.. i can just get emo in a sudden.. that i really really no idea why.. even if i question my self.. i'll get a answer of don't know..

I Feel like.. there's alot ppl talking in my back.. but i just don't know what they were talking bout me.. or am i thinking too much.. ? I've been always thought of letting ppl think of me in a view of great.. but yet.. i think i have failed..

Argh.. how could i continue .. ?

20th September 2009

Urhh .. i'm emo again today.. but somehow i know how to apologise today too.. maybe is because God has speaks to me very seriously and angry.. but i know he still loves me ..

@Anonymous : though i may not know who are you, but i somehow have a feeling too that knowing who are you.. well , if u are really an somebody, Nice to meet you . we can be friends right hahaa.. Really thanks alot alot.. for ur advise, encouragement and also sharing ur experience. You're a good counsellor haha...

Well went out with Nubcake Gabby , Airport Fione , and Noob Fong Pey today ! haha .. because morning emo.. luckily they make my day much more better.. went to Sing K at the afternoon.. lol.. is was really a enjoyable moment.. and then went dinner after go Pool haha.. my 1st time pool "not bad" 1 u know, make everyone laughed so happy hahah included me :P !

It's been a long time i didn't really be happy and laughed like today .. the realy smiles and laugh of me.. is really unforgetable for myself nor other ppl .. that ppl will reminds me, when is ur last smile..

I really should change. By myself, friends and also God..

19 September 2009

Is 2:27 morning now... what is happening to me , lifeless , wasting time , brainwashed..

My emo is getting stronger :D ... today can out of sudden from a nap came emo and really really dont feel like talking.. and again start to think some idiot useless things. Thanks ppl who encourage me and cheer me up, but at this moment i think i really can't do anything other than waiting God's Reply..

Exam is 2 weeks to go.. well started study since last month.. no prob.. !
Sorry Genz Grandpa for making u sad..

Somehow i always question myself, wheres my life, am i useless in this world? am i worthless? am i not that good to ppl? what will xxx think bout me? my reaction will let ppl think what? i think i need to counsel myself rather than counsel other friends.

Currently server getting alot of problems, really burns me up and made me headache. I just wish to faster settle to ISP , so i can have a breath from rediation..

Tomorrow don't know do what.. maybe i'll gonna be lifeless again tml.. durh..

I really don't know what to update my blog.. i just know that my life is now emo, emo and emo. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME!??!?!?!
I FEEL SO FAKE GIVING FAKE SMILEY FACE EVERYDAY...AND REACT LIKE SO HAPPY EVERYTIME.. i really wanna just sit down and cry everything out.. and take a look of the world.. i just wanna have a peace rest from everything.. no phone ringing.. no mumblings .. just me and listening to God.. but yet.. i doesn't have this chance.. to just totally.. totally get my brain a bath and a nap.. a nap is enough.. just a nap.. please..

why.. why i can;t have a life from what the other happy joyful ppl that have.. why i must have so many painful and irriatating experience..

how i wish u'll take me away from this world now .. i'm tired.. i'm really tired and feel nothing in this world.. numb .. numb.. really numb already..

real friends always stays together.. but they will never know when u will be troublesome and also happened incidents.. unless you tell .. but everytime i wanted to tell.. i just dont feel like speaking.. and just wanna rest my mouth and zip it up..

Really.. Can I have a life break through this year.. ? This year.. i a most "wonderful" year for me.. that i would have my so many 1st time this year.. of negative..

Grow Up Ken.. Only You can Help Yourself...
Sometimes.. i just wanna kill myself.. thats it.. end of story...

15 Septemeber 2009

Waiting For the Day i Die.

Life Sucks , BullShitting Life And Unworth.

13th September 2009

I think i'll take a 1 to 2 weeks leave from blogging.. as i getting much more emotional again.. hopefully i will get well soon.. sigh...

08 September 2009

Wuwuwuwuwuwu wuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa >< ! Happy 1st Month born To My Server ~ TransquilityRO ! Wish You Grow Grow And Grow ! xP

Urrrh i didn't update my blog for a few days already hahaa.. Well .. 1more month ! To the exam ! hmm .. Hope i can score well :D ... Aaaa~~ Haven't ready for my debate because i didn't have a time for it >< ! well .. i think i need to find a slot to slot in ! >< ! aaa... School again Tomorrow .. Tao Yan -.-..

04 September 2009

Another day, what an emo and rediculous day too.Great ! My Drama and Emotional also Level Up Edi :D ...

Well today went to Sunway by Cab, then my bro fetch me from Sunway to 1U to have dinner. Then XG fetch me back home.

-The End-
Nothing much say, as im not in mood again.

1st September 2009

Haih ! What A Bored Day ! School Re-open :( .. Well Actually yesterday wanted to post a blog :( .. but then cannot upload photo. No Mood Jor =( ..

Yesterday went Sunway with Gid,Rebecca and Jess. Well.. as usual ! Because is 31st Of August Hahahah ! IS BASKIN ROBBIN DAY ! Actually got alot of photos of the day =( STUPID SAMSUNG PROGRAM!! DONT LET ME COPY FILE OUT ! EMOooOoOOOOooooo !! Then we went Arcade, Played My Favourite Para Para Machine . I didn't know that i had a challenger that is quite Girlish ~ HE IS A BOY ~ Well he followed the cartoon girl inside the Monitor. When the girl jumps he will jumps .. Omg .. Vomit .. ! >< !.. Still I'm The Best WAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA ! Then went Sushi ! >< ! Nyaaaaaaaaaaa wuwuwuwu wuaaaaaaaaaaa >"< ! So NICE .. we joke alots, about the small times what we did the more disgusting things~ *About Shit* .. OmG ><... really LOL went think back
I dont wish my " You're Not My Cup Of Tea" Become " You're Not My Butches of Shit" LOL ..
Hmm !
Again Busy With Server ! T.T