23rd January 2011

A Story Of A Boy

He was not born perfect, and Always thinks If he's actually an Accident..
He had a heart problem, which is 2 holes in the Heart..
He admitted the hospital Everyday, since the day he were birth..
He were admitted to the hospital, and facing Death by losing his very last Breath everytime..
He was just 3 months old, when he was recovered..

But until now, he did not blame on his parents..
But he was always afraid, want will he become to..

He love musics since young.
He love being popular and attention.
He love to lie down on the grass in the house garden, and look up to the sky and stars.
and He love his family very much.

But until the nightmare of kinder-garden came...
But he tried his best , and It was all gone Inverted...

He lost his family when he was 8.
He was being dumped, and the family quarreled everyday.
He can't resist the circumstances, and it was so hurtful...
He looked with his pair of eyes, with the Disperses of members...

But he stayed strong and not give up..knowing there's a Hope..
But things came worse..

He were stayed with his dad at first, and he can't catch up his studies..
He were in the Cyber Cafe everyday til late night, and was absent in the school next day..
He were moved out, because the family was facing Bankrupt.
He were then moved to stay with his mom, and departed from the Royalty Livings..

But one day, he were brought to a camp.
But he never knows, what was the camp all about..

He had a lot of fun in the camp.
He met friends that was so true and good to him.
He were being prayed, for a touch of life.
He had his very first camp with outsider, and it was awesome.

But when he's on the way back, his ear suddenly bleed and became so painful..
But a miracle happens to him..

He cried and the people in the bus prayed and worship God.
He were so afraid, because the feeling of Death is back..
He remembers that someone told him, Call out the name of Jesus when in need.
He immediately asked Jesus to heal him if He is real.

His ear stopped bleed, and the pain slowly gone.
He thanked God, and accepted Jesus as his Savior.

He started to go Church, and It was so nervous.
He runs around in the church every time after Children Church Ends.
He doesn't know what happen,
And stopped from going to church.

But somehow there's always a whisper..
Asking him go back to church..

He were stopped and insulted badly after he's activeness..
He were so sad.. and prayed that his family won't stop him from going to church..
He were very surprise, as the Dad asked if he need a fetch to Church.
And everything was changed , again..

He were attracted to a girl, and It was his very first fall..
He were very very in love.. and tried his very best to court her..
He successfully Got her.. but he were still confuse of what to do..
Time passes by.. and He think he should reveal the relationship to his Youth Leaders..

But the girl couldn't accept..
And they broke up..

He was very sad.. and avoid her..
He thought that It will be an end..
He prayed if she's the one..
He got his answer, and it was a yes..

After sometime,
They got back together..
He was very genuine and caring..
He called up everyday.. else he can't sleep..

But the time was so short..
Because she is about to leave..

He was upset..
He was all alone.. again..
He feels that he's not love anymore..
He tried to his best.. to hide everything..

He was then not interested in Girls eyes..
He was always insulted of Ugliness.
He was always insulted of foolishness.
He was always insulted of being a Wild Son..

He became distracted.. and sick of courting girls because there's no result..
He was always a major attraction to all the Guys..
He likes the feeling of being wanted.. and being a main attraction..
He became a gay, after that..

He did tried his best, to not be one of them..
Because in his heart.. He still loves her , very very much..
But it was such a tempted thing..
He fallen to the worse darkness.. and Had a lot of fun in that society..

He doesn't care anyone thinks, and he opens up to everyone that he's a Gay.
He ignores God and didn't go to the church.
He went home everyday after 12 o'clock.
And he Quarrels and Fight with his family, and leave the house almost every week..

He was actually because of losing Hope, Knowing that He's Hopeless..
He was actually trying his best.. to become Straight..
He was touched by the word of God..
- Do not be afraid; you will not suffer shame. Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated. You will forget the shame of your youth and remember no more the reproach of your widowhood. - Isaiah 54 :4
-But God commendeth His love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Much more then, being now justified by His blood, we shall be saved from wrath through Him- Romans 5: 8
He was very guilty.. very sorry.. and felt very unworthy..

He seek helps from the Leaders.. and Cut off everything which will cause him to sin against God.
He was having the most vexed and painful process.. because more problems gave to him..
He went to the Youth.. and had a breakthrough..
He Bowed before God.. and Everything Was changed.. Again..

He was passionate, and in fire for God.
Putting Him First Priority In all times.
He was still very sorry to the girl he hurt the most..
But in the same time he thanked God.. For giving him such a extraordinary life and experiences.

He still doesn't forget about her..
He tried so much ways.. even when time passes for so long..
He actually felt very sorry.. wanting her to know.. and to forgive him..
He did not receive any replies.. and still being a piece of missing heart..

He look at the photos everytime..and could not resist the pouring of tears..
He was mad..in the surface..
But he found out.. was actually still the same..
Just wish that she will understands.. and tolerate..

He knows the focus is on God now..
He wants to involve in every corner , and shine for God.
In studies, he's having a great improvements.
With the knowledge and wisdom and power of God has Blessed.

He believe alot in himself..that he could do better..
And be a source of light to shines always the darkness which around him..
And lead the people which lost and lives with hopeless to the Truth and The Way..
He will still remember.. He's just 17 years old Boy.. Which Loves God first after everything :) ..

- Because God, You First Love Us, Send Your Only Son Just To Cleanse Our Sin .. So that we will live a eternal life but shall not be Perished -